CHANGES

Of course people change, some for the better or for some - the worse. I suppose people change for the better most of the time, either to suit their lifestyle needs and so on. But there are others like me who are scared to make the changes and move on - and want change when its too late to change. I suppose I'm too scared of what lies ahead of me, what the future has to offer. I don't think its a normal factor or maybe its on everyones minds. I've come accross a lot of people in my life time so far, there are those who I take for granted and don't realise how nice they are towards me but I really don't treat them in the same respected manner. Then there are others when I know they treat me like shit, and I still hang around with them.

I'm not stupid, caus I do realise these things its just sometimes life seems already planned. I know its absolutely not logical for me to say that, but I think I'm gonna go against what I thought was okay and change. I don't think I need to be with what appears perfect or cool or awesome, as I should not judge a book by its cover. I think everyone deserves a second chance, and a shot at life - I should not be so neglected and not give people a chance. Yes I can be a total bitch, racist and all that jazz its in our human nature - but it doesn't mean I don't have a heart, its just I haven't met the right people to share it with - or the right guy.

--- update: My course finally has some asian black hair people ! I was like happy inside, kinda giggling but I wasn't able to intro myself. There are some tappable girls ;) Was also nice seeing Annie in the streets, and to hang with Alex and Jaman and Debbie for a bit. 7 more days.

Edit: He makes me smile like no one does, lets take a walk in the middle of the night and hold hands