As if it was yesterday

"How can I live my life, when you are my life?"

I can't believe I've known you for this long. And I'm glad I met you and endured that moment during my early teenage life with my first 'nocturnal lifestyle' experience. Who knew from friendship, I grew to later on in life like you this much. Although the time goes by, but the friendship and love grows within it. You know I thought I really didn't have anything for you, but I realise how much I actually do like you. Toan reminded me about that, and maybe I was meant to understand that lying to myself wasn't the best option. And so like the other times, I sit here thinking about being with you - but I'm not. Then when I get the chances, I don't take it. Its all fun and games, kiss chasey over and over again.

Maybe its not meant to be, you and I. Maybe you were meant to be a bit of a tease, and soon one day I'll eventually find someone just as perfect as you. But hrmm, some things can be forgotten - but secretly how could you forget? Whatever the decision I may make sooner or later, as its a new year just around the corner. Maybe its time to really let go for good, and start fresh. Perhaps in the next life time I'll be with you, or maybe never. But I don't want to push my luck, and come home empty handed. I think its just best for me to hold back, let you enjoy your life whilst I secretly sit here everyday and blog about how much I want to be with you. Now I remind myself of the past with this snippet from my old blog.

6 August 2008 it dates. At the end of a poem in which I wrote for you I quote " But for now I leave it with I love you as a friend, but we both know that's not how it ends ..."